I am super nervous about work tomorrow. Since my dr appt Friday I have been in bad pain. I haven't taken a pain pill in about 3 weeks until this weekend. I have been living on them just to be confortable. I am already commited to going to work b/c I wanted to. I didn't know I would feel very bad after this past friday's appt. If tomorrow goes rough I may call the doctor and ask for more pain pills and go back in and have him write me off work for another week. I am going to try super hard, but I am scared b/c he only sees patients on Monday and Fridays and what if I give myself to Tuesday or Wed and can't get him to write me off if I really need it. I need to work super bad, but I felt so bad I did nothing this whole weekend and I didn't even go to church this weekend. I barely even got off the couch. I felt so sorry for Jason. He wanted to eat at Chili's for father's day with me, but I could barely function enough to ride to get PeeGee's. I can't sleep and I can't get comfortable at all. My back even hurts b/c I can't staighten my shoulders. Dr. Mickel said this was normal and painful. I am going to try to get a new battery for my TIMS unit and see if that helps my backache. I can't even get comfortable in the recliner, bed, or in any position. Friday night I had to take 2 pain pills and a valium just to get comfortable enough to stop freaking out with the pain. I don't understand why now is worse than a few weeks earlier. I guess the muscles are being pulled from the bones and are being stretched out along with the skin and that is highly painful. I am so sorry this is such a negative post. I just feel the need to vent my fears about what is happening at this moment.I'll try to be more positive next time. Everyone needs a down time every now and again. :)

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